Sucker Punched But Smiling

As women we all go through that whole "screw men! i'm going to lose weight, cut my hair and buy a new outfit to make him wish he never (insert stupid thing a guy did to hurt you here)." moment. We always get sad, then angry about the situation. Then we want to change ourselves or something about us to make things better...?

I have no idea how cutting my hair will make me feel better about a dick being a dick. But I too have fallen victim to wanting to change myself to make some dick regret he did something to me. Hell, I just had that moment about 15 minutes ago lol I have no shame admitting this to you all. Soon after though, I asked myself "wait...why do I have to change anything?" Because really, I'm not the problem in this situation. He is the problem so he should change. Or at the very least, try to be less of a dick to future females lol

There is no reason for someone who isn't fucked up in a real way to change themselves just because someone won't like/love/date/marry etc them. There really isn't anything wrong with you. That person most likely just isn't for you, and them being a dick to you, is a sign saying "HEY! YOU CAN DO BETTER!!" A sign we as women (and some men) tend to ignore. We want to keep the rose tinted glasses on and believe we can change the dick or change ourselves to accommodate the dick. When in reality, we just shouldn't have that dick in our lives in a serious manner. Sure, you can be friends with dicks...you just have to accept them as dicks and keep them arms length away. Besides, you have more important people to spend your time with.

There is nothing wrong with changing yourself for.....wait for it....YOURSELF! But please, don't do it for someone that is going to make you jump through hoops to win them over! You know you can do better, so fucking go out there and get you some better honey! And if it takes longer than you would like, to find the "better", then get a hobby, a bottle and a good friend and deal with it. We all know, nothing worth having, comes easy. I believe you shouldn't give in easily either. I rather wait many years for someone who will make me endlessly happy, than to just hop into something with someone who is mildly entertaining. That's just me though....you do what you want...no judgement.

I won't lie...on more than one occasion I've had several great revenge plans in mind. Things to do to myself to make dicks regret hurting me or not giving me a chance. But being the over thinker and seeing both sides of every situation person that I am, I also realized, I'm not the one who needs to create karma, revenge or anything of that nature to make them take notice of what they missed out. If I just keep being my awesome self, keep going about what I want to do for MYSELF AND MY LIFE, everything else will take care of its self. I will keep being awesome and if they happen to finally realize what they missed out on, cool, if not, whatever. It's not going to change me either way. And I believe if you are really honest with yourself, you will see that there is no need to exact revenge on these folks.

I am not going to break out the Christina Aguilara song "Beautiful" because that stuff annoys the crap out of me most times lol But the sentiment is true. You are kickass, whether a dick realizes it or not. It's going to suck continuing to search for someone who will love you for you, but while you are searching/waiting/dating, DO YOU. Make yourself more awesome for YOU and when that person comes around, you will not only be adored but you will know within yourself that it's true and you deserve it!

Happy New Year...thank you for reading, sharing and commenting! I'm definitely going to do more postings next year and hopefully my plan of being adored for my wit, humor and honesty by the masses will come true! mwha ha ha ha ha ha!!!

New Angels

Psalm 147:3: "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." A great quote by President Obama.

Going to work today seemed pointless to me. Watching everyone spend money. Even got chewed out by a lady. Also witnessed another one throw fits over a coupon. I can't fathom the pettiness of these people when completely innocent lives were taken. No parent should out live their child...it's not the natural order of things. Alas though, this is not what happened. I don't have kids, but i have a few i seriously adore and even though they annoy me most times, there is no part of me that would ever want them to disappear in such a fashion. My heart, prayers and faith go out to all the parents and family of the victims. As well as to all of us who are heartbroken by this tragedy. We must be strong though, be there for the survivors and let them know they are not alone. None of us are. I always turn to this scripture when death has affected me or others in general, Matthew 5:4 "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." It's one i lean on in dark moments. No matter what you believe you should know that, you will be comforted during these awful times. Love and support is pouring out to you all. Please, as always, hug your loved ones tightly and make every moment count!

For me, I believe there are 27 new angels in heaven. Many of them who gave joy to others the short time they were here with us. Now they are in a much better place. Free to play until their hearts contend. They are safe now. They all are at peace. I believe they will always be with their loved ones. No matter who we have lost in this life, if we loved them with all our heart, they will ALWAYS be with you in your heart.

Love, Hugs and Blessings to all of us, everywhere!!

iStalk

Yes, i admit it...i'm on a few internet dating sites. And what have i got to show for my long venture into online dating? Oddly enough, it's where i met one of my bestest friends in the whole world! Along with several other kickass females. It's funny, I've met more awesome women on these sites, than guys. Sure there are a handful of guys but nothing to write home about really...at least not yet. I'm hopeful, its a blessing a curse :)

(for the record I'm into guys, but when you are as awesome as me, you can't help but make friends of all kinds no matter where you are)

What is really fascinating about the online dating scene is, that technology has made it so very easy for us to stalk one another across platforms. I mean you get one person's email and you can pretty much locate them on a few dozen sites easily. You can become completely fascinated with someone quickly and then, maybe, grab your balls and contact them. Because you know, that's not creepy AT ALL. Who needs "Missed Connections" now when you can Google search a stalker picture you took of your secret crush when they weren't looking? Or you could just FaceBook, Google+, Twitter, Friend Finder, Friendster, Zoosk, Match.com, EHarmony, Our Time, ChristianMingle, JDate, BlackPeopleMeet.com, Chemistry.com, PlentyOFish, their email or full name and BOOM, let the stalking begin! 

Yeah, even the most innocent of "researching" can turn into a 2 hour trip down the rabbit hole of learning many things about your secret crush and then realizing you MIGHT have a problem lol 

What happened to lurking behind trees and parking lots to spy your crush? What happened to talking to them casually and getting bits of information little by little to get details of where they live, where they hangout and where they shop? What happened to always being around them at work/school, even when you have no reason to be near them? What happened to sending your friends to get details about them? What happened to rummaging through personal files at work to know where they live so you can drive by slowly at night? What happened to visiting their job 4 times a week to buy things you don't need just to make sure they remember you and have idle chit chat? What happened to mysterious flowers being delivered with a "From your secret admirer" card on it? What happened to originality?! Where is the imagination? Oh look i found you on Facebook and can look at all your pictures and dig into your friend list...SOOOOOOO ORIGINAL *eye roll*

Nope, no one puts any effort into stalking anymore. We have gotten even lazy about that! I for one enjoy the classic, stare at his picture, hope to talk to him for maybe 5 minutes and then tell my girlfriends how amazing that 5 minutes was. Oh and following him from a distance in my car to see where he lives...and what color his towels are when he showers. Yeah, i'm an old school, classy stalker.

Girl Code

Was talking about this with my bestie and decide to post up a quick list of Girl Codes. If you don't know what Girl Code is, it's pretty much certain unwritten code/rules all girls expect their fellow female friends to follow. And in some cases all females in general should follow for the sake of sisterhood.  Oh and there are lots more than I am listing but this is a good start for all girls to keep in mind.

- Don't date your girl friend's ex.
- Don't go after a guy your girl friend has declared an interest in.
- Don't take advances from a guy your girl friend is interested in.
- Don't let your girl friend go off with a guy without getting a picture of him or of his ID (crazy is everywhere these days!)
- When your girl friend is having a visit from the period fairy, you check her backside to make sure no accidents have occurred and if they have, inform her of such promptly!
- If you and your girl friend are all on period fairy time, make sure one of you has enough backup to go around.
- Don't let your girl friend go out looking a hot mess ever! Be honest and tell them.
- Don't leave your girl friend puking in the bathroom to return to the party. Leave no girl behind!
- If you see your girl friend's boyfriend cheating on her, you need to tell her and get pics if possible.
- Always have a code word, signal to get out of a bad situation.
- Don't judge your besties
- Encourage being a SAFE HOE after a bad break up or during a dry spell
- If need be, drive your (hoe) girl friend to the local drug store for Plan B and DO NOT LECTURE HER!
- Be supportive of any pregnancy scares, before and after testing happens. If the outcome is negative hit the bar immediately! If it's positive, be a solid shoulder and help them with what ever choice they make AFTER they see a doctor for confirmation.
- Tell your girl friend if her guy is a dick/jerk/asshole if he truly is one...not if you are just jealous of their happiness.
- With your besties, don't be a prude...let your freak flag fly!
- With your besties, have a secret plan to hide bodies or how to mind fuck a guy who screws you over, at all times.

As you can see, it's a pretty common sense thing, this Girl Code stuff. But sadly too many women have betrayed their friends by ignoring Girl Code. Don't be a bitch. If you truly cherish your girl friends, stick to Girl Code. In many cases, it will make your friendships even better!

Falling

I have no idea where my love of Fall and Winter comes from, maybe because i'm a Winter baby. Either way, i love when that first crisp comes into the air, we start getting windy, leaves start to litter the streets and lawns...aaaahhhhmazing! I know most people think Southern California doesn't have seasons but we really do. We don't stay perfect sunny 75 degrees all the time lol It gets cooler, low 60s in the day even. We get what we call Santa Ana winds and i love those things! I love a good breeze, on a balmy day with a few clouds in the sky, where you need a light jacket or sweater and it just feels good to be in the sun with the wind blowing through your hair! I'm in love with this time of year, i can't stand it lol

I'm the person who pulls out blankets, hoodies and long socks by the armful lol I get to sport my knee high socks and leggings on my off days. My blankets are soft and just an arms length away. And of course i'm in giant cuddle mode now lol I also spend lots of time listening to feel good music...the kind that gives you peace and warmth inside.

It's the season for people to start hooking up and hunkering down for the romantic-ness of cooler weather and stuff. Guys like to find a girl with curves to snuggle up with. The genuine ones actually come out to play too! Those are the guys that will take you out for coca or a nice comfort food dinner, want to walk the beach or park with their sweaters, holding your hands. They make sure you aren't cold, value you not just for your warmth but for your company and awesomeness! These are the guys who know how to make a pair of jeans and sweater look DAMN GOOD! You know who i'm talking about...yep, them! They are what most of us call "good guys". And i have always felt in Fall/Winter they definitely don't finish last.

As for the ladies, this season brings about wanting to be adored and wanted by someone who really cares about us. We watch more romantic chick flicks and some times us single ones are bit bitter at seeing all the couples canoodle around us. I totally admit i am one of those bitter anti couple chicks lol I mean sure, i enjoy seeing real couples be in love and stuff (but i can't honestly stand teenagers ugh don't get me started on them!) but when you are single it's just not something you want or need to see all in your face 24/7.

It's also the season to take stock in the ones we love...family, friends, pets etc. To see who is really close to us or just on the fringe for the sake of being polite. I always clean out my circle of people during this time of year. I don't like to pretend we are good friends if we really aren't. There is no need to waste one another's time ya know. Yeah we went to school together but if i saw you on the street and i don't hug you, you are probably a fringe friend. I don't wish you anything bad, i just don't think its necessary to have you in my life that's all. If ANYONE gets upset over this...stop it...and you are probably one of those fringe friends. I'm just being honest.

Anyways...Fall is here, FINALLY! I'm enjoying every chance i get to be outside (not often sadly). I'm ready to buy more blankets, sweaters and anything else that will keep me warm...maybe even a man? lol JUST KIDDING...sort of...maybe :P I hope you all enjoy the new season as much as i do! And let's not forget, Dark Knight Rises comes out December 4th!!!!!!!

Sexy Average

Friend of mine asked me could a guy have "sexy qualities" but not be super "attractive". I love my friends, they always get me thinking and thus sharing with the rest of the world on just about anything lol

I definitely believe a guy can be sexy but not super attractive. Sexiness is something that comes from within. Attractiveness usually starts on the outside and can seep inside but some don't bother to look that deep into a person. Sexiness is like confidence, you can have it no matter if you are a 10 or a 5.

Let's be honest, no one seriously believes deep down inside they are a 10 all the time, every time. But it doesn't stop us from acting like we are. Same goes with sexiness, everyone has it, but not everyone shows it or even knows they have it. Intelligence is a sexy quality to some people. When we think of nerds, many of us don't think "sexy". But there are definitely some sexy nerds out there and i'm not talking about the ones who wear the stupid "nerd glasses" and tight t-shirts doing Duck Face in their pics on FB.

To me Channing Tatum is not all that attractive, BUT i do think he has a sexy quality that is, his loving affection for his wife when he speaks of her. On the other end, someone like Blair Underwood is insanely sexy to me looks and personality wise. His confidence, demeanor and the way he carries himself is all sexy and attractive to me. Phew, i'm getting hot just thinking about him lol

Sexiness is objective. A woman could adore a man who has a job, decent car and loves his mom and call him sexy every day, even if others don't think he is all that attractive. He could be a solid 6 but to her he is a 10+ because of his qualities. Someone's looks can draw you in but their personality keeps you there or pushes you away. Attractiveness doesn't hold a candle to personality...at least that's what i feel.

I wish people would just be more honest about these things. You could meet a great person and not be attracted to them. That's perfectly fine. Not everyone is going to get our blood boiling every time. They might just get the wheels in your head turning, making you discover what you want in a mate. They could help you heal from past heartache. They could be that window you need to jump through when all the doors have slammed shut. You aren't going to be attracted to everyone and everyone isn't going to be attracted to you. If a good, decent, fun person comes around, don't toss them aside because you don't want to see them naked lol Make a friend and keep your eyes open. You never know what you might find out about yourself when you stop looking for that wonderful, sexy, attractive person that really doesn't exist as much as we build them up to be in our heads =)

Share the Pretty!

The other day i ran into an old co-worker of mine at a fancy make-up counter. We worked together at a make-up company (that is now completely dead) years ago. She is a make-up artist and i always loved her style overall. The other artists i worked with were very over the top. My friend could do over the top if that's what a client wanted but she was more realistic with her approach. That's why i always preferred her doing my daily face and got some awesome tips from her.

Anyways, she said i looked amazing and my application is wonderful! That made me feel so good! I have never taken a class but i love to experiment, especially with eye shadows. I'm an eye shadow junkie! If there is anything i hoard, its eye shadows and mascaras lol But yeah, it was good to see her and she actually asked me for some tips on how i got my eye lashes so "baby doll". She wanted to know what brand i used. I laughed and told her i love Rimmel Extra Super Lash which in the make-up world isn't the most high end brand but man it's awesome stuff! She said she use to be a fan of Rimmel but forgot about it because of where she works. I encouraged her to go try them out again, they are definitely reasonably priced and at least for me have done more than other brands in the same genre like Covergirl. We switched numbers and hopefully we will hangout soon.

This got me to thinking though. People ask me what brands i use all the time. I'm a bit of a snob in some cases when it comes to my brands but i know not everyone, especially women just getting into make-up can afford the ones i get. So i thought i'd share the ones i use and what i love about them:

NYX - they have cool glitter/shimmer eye liners and shadows for that POP many of us like to use on nights out.

Urban Decay - for just about anything. If you like big bold looks they are a good choice.

Rimmel - love their mascaras!!

Covergirl - nice foundations and powders. Mascaras are good for natural everyday looks too.

Smashbox - another good brand if you like bold looks. They do dark colors very well. And their "All
Nighter" spray primer does wonders for the wild/long nights out!

Fresh - just discovered at Sephora, has a great all over Primer lotion. So far it keeps my oils from building up so fast and great for powder application. Also cool mascara mini's, 2 for under $12!! Also love their under eye gel, very cooling and clears up the sleepy baggy eyes nicely.

Wet N' Wild - they get a bad rep for being on the super cheap end but their eye liner pencils are pretty awesome and at 99cents a pop you can't really lose!

Inglot - discovered them after watching one of my fave make-up artists on Youtube. Now, they are definitely on the high end of the industry but once you try them out, you understand why. They have a deal where you can build your own palettes (which can be hard to find companies that do this on a level Inglot does) and once i saw the colors i knew i had to do it! The colors are so freaking awesome! Their stores are very scarce...i went to the one in Vegas and spent almost $80 on 2 palettes but so worth it!! Go to their site http://www.inglotusa.com/ and look for Freedom System...you can build eye shadow, lipgloss, blush, foundation palettes exactly how you want them and order online. I'm gonna get another 2 palettes when i hit Vegas again and continue to build my collection lol They are the brand i would suggest hands down for the confident make-up wearer who doesn't mind spending money on great quality products.

Icings - they have their own make-up line that can be hit and miss but their small eye shadow palettes have been on the win side for me. They are great for playing with new colors and seeing what works for you overall. You don't break the bank at all and you can find some amazing colors that you can find in other palettes when you become more confident and want to move up.

NYC - another brand that gets a less than good rep for being cheap but again, great liners (pencil and liquid). Their lipglosses give some intense color like higher brands. Also a good brand to use when just starting out and finding what you like when it comes to colors.

Lancome - i only know about their lipglosses thanx to my bestie giving me a few as presents. They aren't sticky and go on really smooth. A lil pricey but i feel its worth it, as long as you don't burn through them fast.

Sephora - the Sephora brand itself is pretty awesome overall. They do compare nicely to Urban Decay, Smashbox, Stila etc. They don't cost much either. The quality is nice for their shadows and eye liners. I also enjoy their brushes. I recommend them when you are moving up to the next level of your make-up wearing. You could say they are that brand that is a level up from Target products and below department store products...a nice happy medium!

That's my list. I have used all the brands listed above. I haven't had any bad reactions like rashes or anything on that level with them and my skin is slightly sensitive. I think overall the thing you have to remember when it comes to make-up is don't be afraid to experiment and have fun! It's the only way you will learn what works for you.