Thoughts on MJ Trial

Murray was found Guilty. I'm not surprised, i believe he is the "fall guy". I hope though that the others who are responsible get what they deserve as well, whether it be by the law of the land or by a much higher power.

Michael Jackson was a great performer but he had problems as well, and he did not get to this point (death) alone or by Murray's hands alone. There is always a group of people around celebrities that don't say "NO" to them and those people can deeply hinder and harm the celebrity by not saying "NO". Those people need to have consequences as well. They have to live with the notion of they didn't do something or MORE to help this celebrity have a better life. I don't want to go into it more but we all know, saying "NO" to someone can save their life because so many other's keep saying "YES" to them.

On another note, i really liked Judge Pastor and the head of prosecution Walgren! The DA owned this trial from beginning to end. The judge himself seemed much more personable and realistic which in this kind of case is something that was needed.

I hope people don't act as fools in celebration or being upset at this verdict. Michael Jackson was human being and at the end of the day, he died due to his own issues as well as others helping him feed those issues. Perhaps now his family and children will get some peace and can move forward. Perhaps now his fans can move forward. Perhaps now we all will take a 2nd look at doctors and remember they are human as well, therefore they will make mistakes. We just have to be careful to not put them on higher platforms than they deserve. We are responsible for our own actions at the end of the day and we must all be held accountable for the actions no matter if they have good or bad consequences.

Now let's all move on and hope for better days =)

Start to Finish

I know it's been awhile since i gave you all something to read but life gets in the way...i'm sure you understand that =)

Outside of work, i've been conducting a little experiment on a daily basis. I'm sure we all have our ipods and mp3 players constantly set to "shuffle" because listening to anything in order is just boring and it keeps music "fresh" in a sense. Well, i have decided to stop the shuffle madness and listen too all of my music from 1 to (insert insane number here). Last time i checked (last week) i had 3k songs just on my mp3 player alone lol Granted some of them are double uploads but thats only like 3% of them.

Basically, i have to listen to every song no matter what it is...even if it hurts...in numerical track order. If after i listen to it, i don't want it i can delete it but i HAVE TO listen to the whole track before deleting it forever. And i must delete all double tracks immediately. I started this experiment a month ago and i am currently in the "F" songs. I have deleted about 20 double tracks. I am currently on track #389.

The fun part is, it's almost like my player is on shuffle because i have no idea what song is coming up next. As well as, i get to play the "what song is this?" game, where i try to guess the track title by only using the previous track as a clue. I'm realizing knowing the artist means nothing in this experiment because you can get Madonna and Jimmy Eat World next to each other and unless you know the titles you have no idea what letter nor word you are on. It also shows how eclectic your musical taste truly is. It's one thing to say it but another thing to actually experience it.

I love music so this is a never ending mental pleasure trip for me. OH and if i add any new music i have to go back to the earliest letter of the newest tracks installed and start from there. So if i put "I Follow Rivers" by Lykke Li and "Be My Baby" by Vanessa Paradis in, i have to go all the way back to the "B's" and listen to Be My Baby and go from there all over again XD Which is why i have only added a few new tracks lol

So i challenge anyone out there who loves music and has a ton of it, to try this out. From beginning to end listen to all your music in track title order only! Not by artist. And see how long it takes you and how long you can handle it hehe

Remember it's the little things in life that make it interesting and memorable =)

NOT Sold

I've been absorbing much more tv lately on my days off because i'm too exhausted from work to do anything else besides shower, eat and nap. Some of the crap companies are trying to sell us is ridiculous and the ways they present it can be down right offensive!

-McDonalds commercial where the "rapper" is rapping about their new Mango Pineapple smoothie. Yes, McDonalds, when i think of hip hop i think of smoothies. When i think of smoothies i think of a hot rap concert where JayZ and Kanye promote a smoothie made by you. Yes, McDonalds, this is going to appeal to ME and all of the minorities because we all love rap music and will buy anything promoted in a hip hop video way. Thank you for speaking directly to us, because this is the only way we understand new products.

-Any of those diet pill commercials where some fake doctors and D-Class celebs promote the "awesome results" of these tiny pills. I'm not sorry when i say that ANYTHING ANY JERSEY SHORE REALITY PERSON PROMOTES I AM 100000000000000000000000% NOT GOING TO BUY!!! PERIOD! Roid raging Ronnie is not the picture of responsible and healthy life choices for a better body...i'm just saying. And the names of these doctors are so fake! Let's be real, those pills can kill a person, stop glamorizing being thin with a tiny pill cause that's not how it works!

-Popeye's Chicken...ok i am a bit partial here because i do enjoy their chicken. What i don't enjoy is this woman on the commercials talking about "my chicken is the best" bla bla bla. First off, how stereotypical is this character? Secondly, you need to stop yelling at me about chicken you don't even cook, and probably don't eat. Yes, its good but stop with all the over acted hype.

-That commercial with the white girl rapping about going back to school. SERIOUSLY?! STOP IT! BAD BAD BAD MARKETING DEPARTMENT!!!!

-Time Warner Cable, every single one of their commercials is a lie! When it works its great but when it fails its horrible and annoying! And no, its never cheaper than the competition, ever!

-Any feminine hygiene products i.e. pads, tampons, wash etc. You people are hilarious trying to make periods seem wonderful and easy to deal with. Every woman knows they don't feel like running threw a field of flowers or dancing or wearing a white bathing suit when on their cycle. Let's just be real, if you showed a woman crying, punching a wall or balled up in bed eating chocolate then had the product next to her, that would be MORE relate able and believable than any group of women dancing at a night club. I could do your job blindly!! And those little "tests" with the blue dyed water isn't fooling anyone, so stop using that as proof of how absorbent the thing is. Why do you even need to show that? Just stop lying! You are pissing us off more!

that's all for now

Fitting Room Antics

Women's fitting rooms are evil places overall but when they lock you in and smell funny its an even worse place! Last week i had a crazy adventure while trying on tons of jeans.

I like to scope out several fitting rooms in big department stores like Macy's, which is where i was for this adventure. I know just about all of them and always like to stake out a quiet room so i can concentrate on the task at hand...trying on clothes that won't fit or look funny. It seems on this day, everyone and their mother was hoarding mass amounts of clothes in all the fitting rooms and being loud and annoying. So i dragged my 10 pairs of jeans around until i found a room that was quiet and well lit.

To my delight, no one was in the fitting room at all when i got there and i had my pick of rooms! I never go in the first one, i feel its too close to the main entrance and people always knock on that door or try to get in for some reason. I like the further back rooms...like my own lil corner of the store where no one will bother me and those tend to be the cleanest ones cause they are less used and abused. So i got into one room and it was perfect! Until...the door wouldn't shut all the way. I then thought, well its just off center and began tilting it to shut. Once it did shut i tried to open it again to make sure i could get out and guess what...i couldn't!

Side note...i always, always, always look at the bottoms of dressing room doors to see if i can squeeze out under them in case the door jams. If the doors are floor length i check the top to see if i can climb over the wall/door to get out. If i can't find a way out, i will not use the dressing room period. I was always raised to think "always have a way out of any situation", so yeah.

Yep, i was stuck in the room! I began to turn the knob in all directions and pull on the door shaking the whole room like crazy! I wasn't scared but i knew i needed to try the door the hardest i could before crawling out on the floor. Finally after 8 minutes of pulling and tugging the door jarred open and i bolted to the room next to it. That door closed smooth like butter thankfully!! So i sit down to catch my breath from my "lock in" and realize there was a foul smell in that room. "OH COME ON!" i shook my fist at the ceiling in anger! It smelled like old pee, plain and simple. I tried to wait and see if i would get use to the smell and no longer smell it but the more i breathed the more nauseous i felt, so i quickly grabbed the jeans and my stuff and got out of there.

There was another set of fitting rooms not too far but when i went by there i heard kids screaming so i ignored it. Now though it was quiet so i scurried over there and only one stall was being used and it was at the front. I got to the 2nd to last one, checked the door which was fine and took a deep breath of clean, fresh, well circulated air!

Let the trying on began! Out of 10 pairs of jeans only 2 of them i really liked. One fit perfectly but the waist was so high up, it literally covered more than HALF of my torso and i'm only 5ft1 so yeah. The other pair i liked were just an inch too long but other than that a great fit. They felt like they were already broken in too, so soft and comforting. The down side was the price. I am not paying $80 for jeans, nope.

I sat down again and chilled a bit thinking about how to shorten the waist of the jeans when i heard a mom come in with her lil son. Oh joy! They got the stall next to me too! Great! My flip flops were next to the wall of the neighboring stall and just as i was about to get up and put my clothes back on i see a pair of little hands grab a hold of my flip flops!! It took everything in me to not scream obscenities at this brat! I calmly said "can i please have my shoes back?" and knocked on the shared wall. The mom was very causal about it "oh yeah here" and slid them back under the wall. I wanted to tell her "fuck you very much" but just said thank you and got the hell out of there. Now i see why her kid is a brat.

I don't know why but simple things like trying on jeans always turn out to be an adventure with me. I really wish people would stop being so lazy and take their clothes out the rooms when they are done too. Getting ready to work at Rack i know this is going to be a huge pet peeve of mine. I've worked in women's clothing before and it's always just been a "WTF?!" deal when it comes to dressing rooms. Hopefully, i there won't be too much drama but with women shopping, just about anything is possible.

Things I Can't Put on FB

I like how some of you are already thinking i am going to say the things i can't say on FB in this post lol Yeah that's not going to happen. It's really just an open thank you to my close friends for letting me tell them stuff i really shouldn't say on FB lol

1. Situations going on with my body. It's always nice to confide in someone about these things and i'm glad i have close friends i can do this with so i don't have to put it all over my wall and have everyone looking at me sideways lol

2. My love life. Yeah all that happens in it, everyone should be happy i don't post about it...it's a never ending story that even makes me annoyed some times =P

3. Random off topic shit. I have lots of these moments of random thoughts i could post about but then all of you would be really sick of me, so i don't. Some of you could take a cue from my self control in this department...im just saying!

4. Mood swings. If i posted all my mood swing happenings you would think i am certifiably crazy when i'm not THAT crazy, i just have moments of it lol

5. All the music i come across and love/hate it. Ok actually i do go on tangents here and there but from what i can tell, everyone likes it so imma keep doing it =P

What are some things YOU don't put on FB? Are you saving your friends from countless hours of hating you because they have to read all your pointless updates?

Vegas with KROQ

-Took a stalker pic of Stryker and then met him. He has really soft hands and fun, down to earth personality. Probably my first favorite radio DJ =)

-McCarren airport in Vegas has this subway to and from the gates, its awesome! I think more people in LA would use the subway system if it was like that.

-JetBlue is a really nice airlines! Everyone (even the TSA) folks were friendly and talked to you like people, not like just baggage. The free unlimited snacks and directTV was a nice addition as well. But i would suggest that they give the option of "captioning" during flights for those of us who either 1) are deaf so buying the $2 headphones would be pointless or 2) don't want to wear headphones but still want to enjoy the free tv mhm

-Thursday night when we finally got to the hotel, we changed clothes, and headed to the new Cosmopolitan hotel or Cosmo for short. Yeah, the taxi dropped us off on the opposite in if the new City Center so that walk was not fun but we made it. And then we got completely lost in the Cosmo because it's lack of proper signage in ALL DIRECTIONS! The decor is insane...giant statues of dogs and giant shoes you can take pictures in, random sparkly or victorian chandeliers and don't even get me started on the long ass corridors!!!! It took us probably almost a mile to get to the damn buffet that there were no real signs for. Even the concierge dude confused us =P But we made it to the Wicked Spoon. The food was really good and high end. The desserts were fantastic too! The dinner is $35 but worth it if you pace yourself =)

-Later Thursday night we caught up with the lovely and badass Dez who informed us we could not sleep/nap in Vegas lol So we met up for drinks at Aurora after having interesting conversation about jerks, booze and good times hehe Chilled at a lounge and had a lot of fun people watching. Guys are hilarious in Vegas, that's all i'm going to say about that! Oh yeah, we saw some hookers, wannabe pimps and even a transgender. Which reminds me, gotta hit up a gay bar next trip. We had some marvelous Blueberry Martinis there too. I would have done a Jeggermeister with Dez but i didn't want to spend anymore money haha We finally went to bed about 4am.

-We dragged ourselves out of bed and down to Nathans Friday afternoon. Then we stopped by T&T for happy hour and had a really good Sangria! After that we changed into our pool hotness and headed to the KROQ pool party. It was hot hot hot! Thank goodness for cloud cover though! We only had to be in the actual sun for about 20mins out of 3 hours. The humidity was crazy! Sunscreen melted after only 10mins so that was fun. There was a slight breeze here and there. The drinks were awesome too! The best part about the pool? The free entertainment! Stryker and DJ Jeremiah Red spun good musid and gave away some free random prizes. Then we had the"White Boy Soul Train" show! Several white boys were drunk and dancing their happy little asses off. They were rocking it so hard they had to put their drinks down to enjoy the beats lol One guy did a head stand, he was the best! We loved it! Some old guys scared us with their old man bodies in speedos *eeeewwwwwww*. A few cute guys were around but nothing really drool worthy. A few guys tried to get our attention and we just shuttered at the thought *bleh* Because of the cloud cover we stayed for Stryker's whole show and a bit afterwards. The pool was nice. I didn't get all the way in but Serena and Dez enjoyed themselves immensley. Finally we packed up when they announced the pool was closing in 30mins. Plus the thunder we heard in the distance meant some rain was coming soon.

-Serena and i were hungry so we jetted over to Mandalay and enjoyed a great Irish Pub restaurant RiRa! The atmosphere was amazing! The food was drippingly (literally) delicious! Serena and i are big foodies so this was a real treat for us! If you are in town, check it out, you won't be disappointed!

-We agreed to meet up at Cathouse in a few hours after showering and napping. Serena and i made it but Dez did not because she wasn't feeling well *aaawwww*. Cathouse is a boring club. The layout is weird and it's dark as fuck in there! They use top shelf alcohol which is fine for good drinks but for well drinks, not so much. I didn't expect to be paying $11 for a simple vodka/cranberry. It was extremely hard to see if anyone was attractive in this place. The constant flashing lights were annoying and the music was insanely loud for the small space. White girls dancing ontop of a center divider table was pretty funny for 5mins. None of them fell though *boooo* We saw Adrian from KROQ but not Stryker and really don't blame him for not being there...if he wasn't there...couldn't really see to be 100% sure lol There were only 3 hostesses in burlesque attire and that was disappointing. There were more security guards and waiters who dressed really nice and were pretty attractive...more so than the patrons. The place was mostly table service which was annoying as well. So after a few drinks, darkness and constantly annoying music we headed out. That was the first time we had been bored at a club, so sad.

-After Cathouse we headed to EyeCandy in Mandalay. Not one of our favorite places but since Rum Jungle got shut down *noooooooooooo* we figured might as well give it a shot since it was so close. At the entrance the doorman begged us to be "locals" and we couldn't figure out why. He then told us it was for "personal reasons" which led us to sort of want to know more but not really lol I felt bad for disappointing him, he was a nice guy. We did explain to him that our "local girl" was home sick so we couldn't help him out. We did a shot of Patron and attempted to dance on the small dance floor. It was full of 40+ crowd. They were bumping and grinding all night long! Serena and i were definitely not drunk enough for this experience...we really wished we were though. These white people knew all the newest him KIIS FM type songs being played. They shook their asses like they didn't have children, jobs or significant other's at home lol We even saw a few grandparents...yes, grandma and grandpa were shaking it too. We knew it was an older crowd once we realized the music was oddly low. I guess they didn't want the older crowd to leave due to hearing loss. It was annoyingly low. Which was weird since CatHouse was annoyingly loud. EyeCandy had a bigger space to let the music be louder but yeah.

-The one major incident of the night happened at EyeCandy. There was a Wolf Pack aka group of guys humping and drinking lots of girls all over the club. One of the guys kept booty bumping us by accident. He turned around and started to apologize about his big booty...his words not mine lol He was pretty cute though, so i chatted with him a bit about his big booty and he even turned around once to shake it and show it off to us. He said it was a "problem" and just couldn't help but laugh at him. It wasn't big at all. It was your typical white boy ass. His joking, bald head and pretty eyes had me distracted long enough from the rest of the Wolf Pack to even notice the 6ft1 black guy coming to swoop in and attack me! One minute i'm ready to get serious flirt on with big booty white boy and next thing i know this dude is dropping it like it's hot in front of me with his face nuzzled into my chest. His hands were running up and down my hips and on my ass. I was being violated and could barely believe it was actually happening! I thought he was just going to do that and be done but nope, i was wrong. He then grabbed my legs and hoisted me into the air, legs wrapped around his hips and humped me in the air!! He was thrusting really hard, i kept thinking "ok i know it's there! put me down!". I saw Serena behind him and she didn't know if i was enjoying it or needing her to punch him in the liver and i was too in shock to give her a proper hand signal so i just grabbed held on for dear life! I was yelling in his ear though "I'm good! ok i'm good!" but he just laughed and gave me a dirty smile and then lifted me above his head so he could put his face in my boobs once more! He slid me down, humped me one last time and then i was back on the ground. He walked away cheering to his guys and i was left distraught, violated and in complete shock. Serena made sure i was alright and all i could do was think "what would Tina Feya and Maya Rudolph do?" I don't know why i thought of them but i did and i thought, they would dance it out, so i told Serena "ok i need to just dance this off Serena, cause if i leave now i won't feel right." She agreed and we tried to dance it off. I truly believe we were both so in shock we just didn't know how to respond. I know if Michelle and/or Sonia were with us, that probably wouldn't have happened but i know the Wolf Pack would have been all over us still. They were making their rounds and attacking lots of girls...i was not the only victim lol The guy that violated me even did it to a much bigger girl and even though he couldn't get her as high off the ground as he did me, he got her off of it. I wanted to get back to talking to big booty white boy but he was enthralled by some blondie so yeah lol We danced a bit longer but go bored and decided to call it a night with EyeCandy.

-On the way back to threw our hotel, we dropped in on LAX, a supposidly hot night club. Yeah it was a big boring as well. The doormen were assholes taking 5 to 8 minutes to go over our IDs...i wish i was kidding about this! We were the only ones in line too. Finally got in, climbed up and down stairs and saw the long stretched out room and dance floor. Its another narrow layout as well. Lots of table service too. Nothing special, didn't see what all the hype was for. We didn't even buy drinks.

-The night was very random and kind of a let down outside of RiRa. We didn't finish our food there so it was waiting happily at our room for us! It was even good ice cold! We discussed how lame our night was. I was very upset about Rum Jungle being shut down. I even missed the crowded Pure. Next trip definitely NOT going to do those 3 clubs again! We crashed again about 4am.

-Saturday we packed up our things and headed to lunch before hitting the airport. Good food was had once again. If we know nothing about Vegas, we know where to eat =) Didn't get to see Dez before we left but got to talk to her and made plans to hang again as soon as possible!

All in all it was a really fun trip! Not just the fact that it was free, but the fact that we got to hit up Vegas in summer which is something we rarely ever do! I don't think i will be doing it again in the future though, its just too damn hot lol I LOVED seeing and hanging with Dez! She is such a fire cracker and doesn't hold her tongue for anyone which is exactly what i love about her! I can't wait to get back out there in December with ALL my girls and party it up for my 30th! Thanx again to KROQ and Stryker for making it a fun lil escape that i truly believe i earned! Someone up there likes me! And yes, i did gamble and won some money. I can honestly say (even though i hate the term) i was winning from beginning to end =)

Thanx to my girl Serena for coming with me! It was the least i could do for my bestest friend!!!

A Maternal Second

My good friend Maximus just had a really adorable baby whom i call Mini Maximus. This kid is already melting my heart as i see more and more pictures of him with his daddy. Also because his hardcore of a man dad is being reduced to mush by such a tiny lil human hehe I am proud and happy for Max and can't wait to see the daddy adventures!

As i looked at the newest picture of Mini Maximus, i had what i would call a weak moment but you mother's would call it a "maternal" moment. For a few seconds i thought "i want my baby to look that cute". Yeah! I KNOW! Razz had a maternal moment which is just crazy! If you know me, you are probably picking your jaw off the ground lol I don't have these feelings and i've said it over and over again "i don't have a maternal clock and i'm happy about that." or "i'm not birthing no babies!" Either way, i've been anti children all of my life...even as a child i didn't like badass kids and had to tell them or my mother "those are bad kids", which made her laugh all the time.

But yes, i admit for a second i was weak and thought about having a baby that cute and with a man that awesome. I have always enjoyed strong, hardworking men. Men who are soft and romantic on the inside but not everyone gets to see it. It takes something pretty serious to make a strong man become mush and soft. So the thought of my "future baby daddy" who will be like that (strong, hardworking bla bla bla) becoming softy and a dad and loving our child made me FOR A SECOND want that.

Then reality kicked back in. This adorable Mini Maximus is adorable at that very second...in the picture...with his father...on the monitor...with no sound...far far away. Yeah, that kid is precious in that moment. Not so much when crying, pooping, whinning, walking, talking, schooling, maturing, hormoning, humping, dating, smack talking, peeing everywhere, eating, high schooling, graduating, lazying, mooching, moving out and then back in and then back out, mooching some more, falling in love with hoes, heartbreaking and heartbroken, doing stupid stuff with friends, then maybe settling down...maybe. Yeah...i rather stare at the picture and then go back to my life without babies =)

Now, don't get me wrong, i know Mini Maximus is going to be an awesome kid. He cannot not be! His dad is awesome! And his dad won't take no shit, so i'm not concerned about him at all lol I still don't want one though. Nope, the moment's passed. And even if that adorableness somehow got attached to me and i to him and wanted to be around it more, i still don't want to birth any babies! I would love to keep the kid while he is quiet and sleeping adorably and then down the road as a teenager to tell him the ways of women and why hoes are hoes...but still don't want to birth any! NOPE!