That Guy...

Father's Day is bittersweet for me. While i do love and cherish the guys that i know who are amazing dads and doing the right thing (my brother Quincey, my cousin Reggie, my friend Maximus, etc.) i can't actually say when i think of my own father i don't feel the need to tell him Happy Father's Day, let alone speak to him. I haven't bought him a card probably since i was 5 years old.

When i think of "father figures" i have always thought about my cousin Stephon. He was always there for me like a father/brother no matter how far apart physically we were. After him of course my grandfathers and a few other cousins who i am close too. These men, did for me what my own father should have done. They showed me what a REAL MAN is. They answered all of my questions i ever had (and i had thousands of them) about life and needed a man's perspective. These men helped me NOT have a jaded outlook on guys because of my lack of a father in my life. They helped me see that not all men are lame and fail when it comes to raising children. Not all men are spineless. Not all men pretend to be grown ass men, no they actually do it.

The other side is the women in my life (mom, grandmothers, aunts, godmother, etc.) have all been FIERCE STRONG WOMEN! They never let me feel like i was less awesome just because my father was not around. If anything they lifted me up HIGHER to make sure that i never felt anything but loved, cherished and amazing especially when my heart took big hits from my father.

That's the sweetness of this day! Knowing that i may have "lost" a father but in this loss i gained several amazing male figures and female figures in my life, that i really NEVER feel the loss. That's such a blessing that it makes me tear up! Because inspite of that dark spot in my life, the brightness i have blasts it away =) I don't get emotional over many things but this is one thing i do get emotional about because i know without these outstanding people in my life i wouldn't be where i am now. I would be another female statistic doing all kinds of wrong and having daddy issues up the wazoo! I'm super thankful!

Some people (guys) think i am too hard on them when it comes to being a father. Now you know why i am this way. Because i know exactly how it feels and i will be damned if i am going to let you get off easy after you have created a life. The same goes for women too who don't want to step up and do the right thing but that's another story for another time lol

To all the single mom's out there doing the mommy/daddy thing, you guys are my hero's! And i really hope you know that you are doing an amazingly difficult job but you do it so very well! Stand tall and be proud on this day too! You all deserve it and i love you dearly!